can't ... quite ... leave

So we were finished two days ago, but it's just so hard to say goodbye. We went to our final afternoon class at the Home of Affection on Wednesday, last morning class on Thursday and our final play time with the kids at the Baby Orphanage just this morning. It was a very hard goodbye for me and I've been an emotional wreck all day.

Jumping from here to Ha Noi is a lot scarier than I thought it would be and everything that I thought I had worked out has, bit by bit, fallen apart. No place to stay, no job, little money. I'm starting to question my decision to stay in Viet Nam; as much as we love it here, I'm just not so sure I can do it all on my own. If I had the cushy bank account I wouldn't be quite so frightened. If I had someone to count on, I would be a bit more confident. If I didn't know that I was toying with my kids' lives, I'd be less worried. I can't and don't have the things that I wish I did and now that the easy part is over (and I thought it would be hard).... well, I'm just not sure how things are going to go.

In other news:

- I lost my stick drive so I can't download the application form I need or the lectures I'm supposed to read and I can't upload any photos and I got some freakin' cute ones, too.

- I finally got to ride a motorbike. Mr Hanh has taken me out twice to ride; I made it back home in one piece both times. I'm not sure I like riding 6 inches from another motorbike, but I did it.

- Stuart managed to get his arms out of the mosquito net again and they are now covered with bites (see "bad bug bites" posting, it's like deja vu).

- Our fellow volunteers for February wrote us a lovely goodbye song... dedicating it to Family Ta-li-sa (Mrs Hanh's name for us).

-I saw a pig that was being butchered and skinned right outside the shop by our house. Ew.

- New volunteers came from New Zealand, Australia and Canada. So at dinner, we now represent those 3 plus America, Viet Nam, Denmark, England and Belgium. Stuart adores the international communication.

- We're heading to Hoi An tonight for some festival.